haha...i'm so itchy hands today...
and cause of tht...i'm starting to feel shitty....
(no not i anal-ed myself and start having diarrhoea again lol)

it's just that i reflected upon myself for such being a pussy...
haha...opportunities were there for me to go all-out for someone...but i just kept mum and be plain...

but its the past...haha looking the way i actually planned stuff but all did'nt work out cause i'm actually to pussy to do all that...
haha...i'm not too emo-ed about it though...cause probably if i did all that still she wont consider me or blah.
if i did...lol.i would waste significant amount of fucking effort.
i officialy wasted time (practically almost a year) on her...haha.

i hope this does'nt repeat again in the future....

:D